 Grief and Sorrow are very often a form of denial. Meaning there is a separation occurring between our disappointment of what is and what we want to be. Sorrow occurs when we tell ourselves the story that our Source does not love us or is separate from us or this would not be happening. If we buy that instead of just allowing the feeling and situation without the story we experience grief. Grieving is prolonged and often permanent belief in our story of separation, not being loved, not being cared for, not being good enough or enough of anything. You know when you have this condition because you will develop some type of lung or breathing problem. Almost everyone in todays world is susceptible to lung or breathing issues at some time. There are times when we need to do more than meditate or breath or deprogram in order to move forward. Sometimes we need understanding, we need awareness and we need assistance from beyond what we know to do. We need to move into our confusion. From the place of confusion we become aware of our unconscious beliefs or what we desire and what we grasp at in order to maintain a belief that has been shattered by some event. We don't feel safe here because we have to go below where we are to connect to Source in order for our Source to take us to the next level of belief. Life is a progression and in time and that is the pain of it and also the glory. We live a step by step existence. What I mean by that is that we don't simply return to Source we slowly become it. That is the point of being in form. Meaning we are here to experience the return, the rejoining and the liberation from limitation of separation. So even death of those we love can be a form of reunion. As we move below the surface to our source for security, love, comfort, communication and camaraderie to discover ourselves again. We discover our Source again. I will tell you a story. When I very young, a baby actually, I was in my crib and my father was smoking in the room. I was crying. My father came over and started blowing smoke in my face and ridiculing me and as I began to choke and cry louder he stuffed a sock in my throat. Oddly I have been able to remember this event for a long time except the sock part. I remembered being in a crib and the smoke being blown in my face. All my life I have hated cigarette smoke and tried to avoid it. That behavior and aversion has become stronger over the years. 2 years ago, the day after my mother died who smoked 3 packs a day, a woman moved in next door to me with a heaving smoking habit. This is supposed to be a non smoking building but the management company and owner of the building did not support me. They said one thing and did another. I felt very dishonored, betrayed, confused, and I tried to find another place to live, ran an ozone machine, resisted, persisted, sent love, did rituals, you name it I did it. So here I was in the same position no matter what I did. Not only that, everywhere I went people lit up. I was a magnet for cigarette smoke and smoke in general. I finally just surrendered that this was my reality and felt the defeat, helplessness, lack of love and support, the confusion of not being loved, not being valued and the regular experience of losing my breath and my throat closing up and not being able to breath. Depression and deep sadness and the thought that this was my life and I had no way of changing it. Then I received a prompting to call a friend who works with presence and I called did. A few minutes into the conversation I started to wail and scream and I felt like I was suffocating and I remembered the whole incident sock and all. For weeks the grief and sorrow released in tears and sometimes I would go into the story of how I was not loved ever in my whole life and I would ask Source how is this? I need to experience love to feel it to know it. Why is this happening? I also observed myself judging my behavior as attention seeking and trying to get my way. What I needed to remember is that this is the way a baby communicates even if it occasionally came out in inappropriate places. Also, there is a stigma with expressing emotion of people being crazy. What to do? Enter an asylum? I mean really, it is just a feeling. A few days before I had the memory I was speaking to friend and saying "I don't understand why I am still having this problem with my neighbors." "Why am I still in this situation?" She kept saying "I don't know why you let this bother so much?" and I kept saying "They are in my house." "I can't get away from them." I was observing the conversation and wondering the same as she did and also wondering why I was answering the way I was. I did not feel safe. These people had threatened me physically, mentally, emotionally and my business and livelihood were dependent on the location of where I was. I was stuck and things appeared to be getting worse. They befriended the best friend of the owners of the building who were now cryptically indicating they thought I was creating problems. I don't know how anyone couldn't notice the smell or notice their behavior. I just felt as though I was watching this weird movie of my life and there was a pattern of this throughout my life. So what to do? Watch, experience, feel and try to trust. This was the heart and throat chakra so I had expressed in all ways I could think of and I had run the gambit of my spiritual and intellectual wisdom. Then I began to notice something. I was no longer allergic to smoke. I didn't like it still but I was not having the reaction I used to have and was not drawing people to me who smoked when I was in nature or elsewhere. Cool huh? Wow! This was big. I had finally succeeded in healing the source of my problem. If I am being healed I could be loved, supported, clear and safe. I only have to trust in my Source instead of any circumstance or outside influence. At this point one of my friends said she was going to write a letter to an event in her life thanking her for all it had given her. I thought it was a good idea and I did the same for my circumstance and found out that I was quite upset still for all the suffering I had experienced and I felt like I had done all this work on myself for so long and was open to this healing long ago. Why didn't I receive healing and awareness and understanding long ago? Why all this suffering and I kept hearing that I had to help others. Why couldn't this happen long ago. I just didn't understand. The truth is I had to share it. All these years of suffering so I could share it. It just didn't seem like a good decision for me to have to have this experience. Why not just heal it. Why the need for suffering and why did it take so long. I wasn't so happy with this answer. It didn't make me feel better. I may be true but how can I trust when I make decisions like this. So many times I felt as though I had fallen to far and that I wouldn't be able to get back, to trust again and here I am healing. This may seem like simple information and certainly I have had forms of this experience many times and I shared it in my work. I don't know why I have to do it again but here I am and I am sharing it through writing. Someday I will have full awareness in the meantime I am asking for help to heal and to let go of this pain and I know it is already here and soon I will move on from this place. Once we release Grief and Sorrow we are home. So another thing grief is anomaly of the throat chakra and sorrow, the heart. What does this mean? Well when we release this we move from the body programming and into the monad. The monad is the 8th dimensional field and signifies the union of the Heart and Throat Chakra. This is the Greater Heart and the entry into the Great Central Sun and Christ Consciousness in earnest. Here we are one. What I do for myself, I do for all. So from here on I will love myself, I will nurture myself, I will accept wealth, abundance, and I will accept love knowing I am safe and secure and knowing by doing this I give the gift to others. I will say this, until you experience the 8th dimension you can not fully experience loving or being loved. Stay tuned. Love to you and in and through you. Inkalesh. One more thing. The rules that apply to physical reality are not applicable here. The chakras are dimensional so this is where we unify the chakras. The Eithth and Ninth dimensions/chakras are where we unify our chakras and become a multidimensional being. The transfiguration/ascension occurs in the 10th, 11th and 12th chakras. We are ascending. It is true. You have to move through it. It is the way it is should you choose to move beyond duality and into union. Not sure what happens after the ascension. I hope it is good. I think we go into 5D with our souls in tact and fully connected to Source. Blessed be. Oddly, I had a person think that I was trying to process when I told this story and that I was in a story. I just want to say that the point of the story is that the results of the incident disappeared, ie no longer allergic to smoke and the emotional response moving out of my system. So the point is that divinity put me in a situation where the original separation from source occurred until it triggered a full return to Source. This story is being shared in order to allow more awareness of what could be going on if you find yourself in a situation where you can't seem to get a handle on why it is still happening. It is not just acceptance of people or situations and our subconscious thoughts but acceptance of our feelings of futility, ect... that can lead us into the space of healing. Written by Amorandre'a 07/06/17. 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