I don't know how to 'splain it?

          It is too weird.  The whole reality I am in is fabricated and all of the people in it have betrayed me.  I am not kidding.  In a peripheral reality, or I should say the people on the periphery have not betrayed me.  Fascinating.  I am not in any way shape or form engaged with the people who have betrayed me except I am in the same reality and I was engaged with them at some point.  I could not see what was happening or I saw it and didn't know how to stop it or get out of it or not be a victim to it and now it is just weird.  I don't understand how I am still here since I don't really exist here except on a physical level.  So resources are not here but my physical body still is.  I see all of the sides of it and roles I have played where I unwittingly betrayed a few people with zero intention to do so.  But what happened here and through my life was intentional and unkind and destructive and I don't really understand why it all has been my whole life that people treated me in this way.  Even my family.  My mother was also treated unkindly.  I could see what they were doing and ignored it or tried to make it better for them or, in a way, took responsibility for their karma.  So I am really not a victim to this anymore.  So why am I still physically here and why am I suffering the results of other peoples behavior? It feels done.  DNA and somehow my choice but honestly I don't know why?  I have literally gone through hell and it can't touch me anymore.  I wonder about the people who persecuted me and my cats and I wonder what their fate is?  These supposed pillars of the community.  How delusional do you have to be to do these things and think it won't effect you?

          Okay, so here I am.  I have the same body, same home, same environment and have put a lot of energy into moving forward and nothing has shifted.  I mean, I have shifted, but nothing outwardly has shifted.  I feel great, happy.  I love myself.  Things are happening around me.  On an outward technical level, no change.  Zero point?  I get confused because I expect my physical experience to change to a higher dimensional level and I don't know how to maneuver in that place or if maneuvering there is different and so I am not sure what I need to do or if I need to dream reality in the same way?  Like will I need money?  How will manifestation happen from my new body.  Is it the time for the transformation?  Believe me when I say I am moving into a new body.  What do you think all the re-coding was for?  Homelessness?  DNA is the program.  Can't say.  Don't remember. 

          Okay, zero point, quantum field, whatever.  Not really, Pregnant Pause.  The past is done. I have dreamed the good dream, done my work, accepted responsibility and prepared to the degree that I am able.  It is the moment right before the Shift, Manifestation, Birth.  The question isn't what has happened but what hasn't happened.  The 11th dimensional energy of Sa, the Creator, our blueprint and the joining of our mind and high heart has happened.  The ascension from Soul in union with Spirit has happened.  What hasn't happened.  The 12th chakra, Ra, the life force which enlivens us is next.  Love you all.  Even the crazies and freaks and betrayers.  See you on the flip side.  We are there.



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