Reflections

          I suppose as we awaken it is natural to want to share what we what we learn with others or even what we think.  Sharing information and ideas is natural and a part of living a rich fulfilling life.  But just because we read a book or have an awareness does not make we are sharing valuable.  True value comes as a result of grounding our awareness into our everyday lives.  If we do not value what we believe no one else can.  Oh you could win the popularity contest among the shallow but it will have no real value.

          Along the way I have met thousands of individuals who put themselves out there as spiritual teachers and have only met 5 or 6 who were actually genuine.  For most there is attainment based on knowledge only.  It is the basis for nearly all of our schools and universities.  I don't know what to say to people anymore.  I see commitment to ideas but no willingness to show up for their beliefs.  I am not perfect but I do try to embody what I speak.  I sometimes fail.  Frequently, frequently I fail, but I try.  I work at it.  Our whole journey through duality was to learn to be present to be genuine.  I have tried to have relationships with the shallow of this world but I find it difficult to trust those who repeat my words as if they are what they have learned and experience, what I have grounded and act as if this is their accomplishment, their wisdom.  I want experience with others who are accomplishing something real. 

          I suppose I am disappointed in my choices in friendships and that I am sad because I realize that there is no one to share with.  I am so sorry for whatever it is in me that created this condition.  Please forgive me, thank you, i love you.  I suppose I can see how I have made it okay for you to use me because I thought this to be only value and that to be liked I had to give myself, my value away.  I wanted that but you can not share what does not exist.  I now value myself and my path and my realization and my heart and my true need to be loved and share.  Of course this is a paradox for there is no other and the only reflection is myself striving to be better and hoping I am not alone which is both impossible and true.


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