Resurrection

            All the way along some but not all of the mind control stuff continues.  There may be one or two body programs still running.  You are aware that this is there and you are being controlled and you are trying to remove the programs and doing what you can and you may get tired and say the hell with this.  Just fucking dissolve my soul because I can't be in the body with this programming and I am done with this.  And it is true at this point the programming has to go.  The deal is the body you are in can't go where you are going.  And frankly you feel like a victim and you don't understand why you are continuing to go through this shit.  Shit.  What a bunch of crap.  I mean I am so over it and angry or at least the program angry is running.  What is it I don't get?  What is it I don't understand?  Why is this still happening?  Here is the deal.  Before you can resurrect yourself and fully activate your light body codes and receive the hidden knowledge you have some final steps.   

           For one thing, why?  Why have you done all this?  What is all about?  Yes we want to graduate and get the hell out of this reality.  Yes we want to unite with our Source.  We want to feel good.  We don't want to be controlled.  We needed to understand everything we learned here.  We needed to understand the nature of physical reality.  Yes, all of that and we can not wield the sword of the Knowledge of Good and Evil until we are aware and able to Master and Control our thoughts and emotions.  I will say this again.  Good to know but when you have the Demiurges whispering in your ear and messing with your coding and downloading disease and negative thoughts and emotions, AAHHHHH!  Not to mention EMF's, chemtrails, pesticides, ect...  My brain feels a little mushy and I just don't want to do this anymore.  So what is it?  I still have desires for comfort and love and the ocean and my peeps and a clean beautiful world.  What is wrong with that?  Nothing.  At this point I don't care if I am of service and at the same time I can't stop being of service.  It is intrinsic.  It is me.  So I don't feel I am off track and still I grieve.  I grieve the part of me that is not free and then I realize that the part of me that is not free is the rest of my Hu-man family.  Oneness....  Do I have to choose whether I will remain and be of Service.  Really?  I just want freedom.  How can I know until I am free?  How can I know what I don't know?  I know this, there is no value in what is not freely given.  So I am back to if I can't be free lets just dissolve my soul. 

          What am I not getting?  There is a "Being" guarding the Tree of Life.  Like or not folks it is a Serpent, a Dragon, and she/he existed before light and darkness were separated, before masculine and feminine, before the Universal Man not Earthly but Heavenly Man was formed in his image.  Guess what the Serpent, at least in this case, is a beautiful Light Being under it all and so are we.  Hello we are Spirit we are of our Source.  The shift we are making is into Source, into our light bodies.  Before that happens, before we become immortal, before we receive the Universal mind of Source we must prove that we can't be led astray, seduced by that which has no value.  If you can become incorruptible,  if you can resist all of the bullshit and get past the facade we will complete our Ascension into the mind of Source and join with him completely.  It is at this point that you are freed from the voice and influence of the Demiurges of physical reality.

          Finally, my inability to conform, my steadfast rejection of worship pays off.  It is precisely my refusal to be defined that is my ticket to union with my Source, The Creator of All.  The Flower of Life Sun appears and I see it in the upper part of the 3rd chakra and between and in the heart moving here and there.  I feel some of the programs or outside influences relieved from my body.  I hope they do not return.  There seems to be something happening in the upper part of the third chakra and as my attention goes there it rises into the rib cage where the rainbow bridge was broken.  I hovers there and moves back into my heart.  When it was in belly I kept seeing crowns and representations of the pineal and the Fleur-de-lis and now the crown is also opening again and the crown is on my head and my ears are open and my eyes.  A crown is placed on my head and I am not feeling grumpy and ill at ease anymore.  I have seen the large body of a serpent moving through my chakras many times and I see it again now.  Things are happening.  Was it only that I was distracted with worldly things for a bit that waylaid me?  I don't want these distractions.  Best of all my heart can feel the glow of love and I feel relieved by this.  I can't stop crying.  I was afraid I had gotten lost again.  Lost in this place and I start thinking of the lost souls and wondering if I can even help them.  I don't want to be among them.  With all of my heart I need to be free.  With all of my heart.  The sun has moved into my throat and lungs.  I have a lump in my throat and I breathe here for a while.  I can feel the pain of not being loved and all those behind me snapping at my heels and grasping towards me, wanting freedom, not ready to be free.  I see a blue bird with a beak nesting on my head.  Is this real?

          A thought enters my mind, I can no longer project that I am unloved and all the ways in which I project this story must give way to something else, to Source.  In this way I am Source.  I decide.  I am still weaving this light body and when I feel imbalance I will bring in the Soulstar and the Ankh and allow myself to re-code and to bring it into all my chakras until the Serpent and I are one.  All I have to do is be loved, to allow love to flow, be open to something new, to something different, crack myself open and let the light begin to shine again. 

          Damn, when I cracked open and let the light in one more thing showed up, Anger.  Every time I felt that someone or something was getting into my business I got angry and I couldn't control it.  Sure I felt it.  I tried not to judge it.  I didn't like it.  I thought it was not indicative of where I should be or what I should be expressing and there it was.  Embarrassing.  I went into it and got some images and I did my practices but it was still there.  I asked for help and I realized again that I was taking on peoples stuff.  Not that it is not mine too.  I just have this savior complex.  I want everyone to to know they are loved and often at my own expense.  I can't do other peoples work for them and I have this idea that I could still in there.  I could make them feel loved.  I could prove it.  All the images were times that I did that and I took on their beliefs to go where they were to try to help them.  So I every time I do this at least in the images I got this time the people I engaged with projected their anger on me and I took as my own.  Not like I hadn't realized this before, I had, but this time I was really able to let it go and choose myself, my own enlightenment.  I did the forgiveness to myself and the others and I just feel love.  Now I am not angry and the light feels really good.  Thank you Source!

          What is the purpose of becoming incorruptible?  What can we accomplish as incorruptible "beings"?  What is the purpose of cooperation and awareness?  How do we work with others without asking questions and without delving deeper.  How in light of these questions do we return to a simpler way of life?  As we graduate from these programs and move forward into self authority and government, as we recognize the purpose of what we have endured in the programs as we move into the Galactic Community remember your sovereignty, remember the lessons you have learned here and remember to have compassion and understanding.  For those still in process and entrapped it is not to invalidate your experience or you pain that I say this.  You are living in a extremely slowed down false reality kind of video game.  You have not lost those who are gone.  They are here.  They are not in the video game.  If you had not played this game you would never have understood unity or been able to be responsible "beings" or been allowed to be a part of reality as it is.  I hope you will forgive and heal and move forward as the responsible, loving beings you were created to be.  Love to you all.



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