So here we are. Honestly, all this stuff I am currently experiencing I have been through and integrated on my spiritual path before, so I find it interesting that I am recounting the process in a few year period. Then again, we have these cycles and they keep getting closer and closer together until time collapses creating a quantum field much like the black sun. Da, da, da, daaaa! Okay, here we are. I have been working with the Ankh for a few years now. Learning curve. No one tells you how it works or what it does and this has been true for the whole process, at least for me. I guess this way of sharing without knowing what is happening may be valuable to some. I just kind of forget everything I know and do it again. Fun and games with Dick and Jane. So, one last time, here we are.
We have been playing with the Ankh, charging our light body, creating a fractal field in our bodies, reprogramming in accordance with our Sol/Sun and getting rid of grief and sorrow. We have been getting our Colors from our experiences and now the Sun locks into heart and throat and greater heart forming a kind of diamond in a shade of aqua and there are other colors here. It forms a light cross and is the center of the light body.
The other thing is I had many Ascended Masters with me helping me through this process, most notable, El Moyra, and the other other theosophist encouragers, Djwal Khul and Koot Humi. Also, MM, Mary Magdeline but she has always been near. Babaji, brought El Morya to me, as I kind of don't trust other entities after being in duality so long, and he had to prove himself to me. Morya is the main one helping up the ladder to the next level here and he is stabilizing my world in a concrete way. Making it possible for me to be here and be safe and have what I need. Kind of a nuts and bolts guy and very real and focused. He says I am a magic woman as he watches me work with lower thought forms, energies and manifestations. I like that. Recognition with no ego stroking and respect for what I have achieved. It is an actual getting know each other process and oddly he is learning from me and I from him. I confess that I am not completely clear as to his intention in our relationship and I am not sure if this is an overlay from being in duality or if this is some kind of partnership? It is very intimate emotionally, personally, and not invasive. So confusion is a continuing theme here and I don't create a fantasy about our relationship, lets be real, he is etheric. That being said there is a familiarity similar to what was experienced in duality and not just my feelings but his. It is all kind of new and not. I question, "Am I feeling this connection because I have always craved the kind of stability he offers?" I have to be sure there is no manipulation happening. But he doesn't seem to want anything from me, at least not anything inappropriate. No control being projected. He has curiosity about how I accomplished what I have accomplished? He does watch when I do my work? Things are different with this guide. He is tangible and present almost physically present. Communication is different. They can not lower their vibration in some ways and I am aware that everything is not being shared with me. I do want to trust but lets' be real, it is best to come to trust through process rather than jump in not knowing who I am trusting. Life is a progressive experience moment by moment. It is also all happening simultaneously so somewhere I already trust even though I have f'd up in the past.
In duality my ex-husband physically and energetically resembled El Morya. Interesting. Did I chose him because of this obvious over the top connection. I never really got into the whole Ascended Master thing although they have showed up from time to time and they are here always in some way. Now I am in the Azure World of my heart. It is watery here, fluid. I am home. I am in another world and nothing is the same. I am sure this makes sense to only a few and that is the way it is at least for now. I am fluid. I am an azure color and it is my color. I apologize for any incoherence as things are becoming inexpressible. I don't think I can even begin to appear normal again. I am in Darjeeling above the clouds and the retreat is grounding. We are here. We have arrived. We have bridged the worlds. The temple is here now in this world, the old world is gone. The temple is here within me and upon the Earth. Information is increasing a lot more to integrate at this new level.
I can't help but be hopeful for what is next and am craving simple things. My body is old now. I have aged these last few years and there has been a mental strain as well as physical. I crave the connection of a lover, of long walks, healing, belonging, kindness, warmth and light cool breezes, blue and white flowers, wonderful cool water, wonderful abundant fabric, marble to walk upon and simplicity.
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